Mark, Migueal, and Davis

So my life has been insane and I have been doing so many things that I said I would never do. I mean I lost my fucking virginity! I swore that I wouldn't do that until I was married. I've been drunk. Twice, and the worst thing is that I want to do it all again. I actually have plans to meet up with someone just to hookup. This isn't my life. I don't know what I'm doing. I am so confused because I want to keep doing what I'm doing but I also don't. I don't think hooking up is the best thing for me, I get that. I have guys that I want to date, three, actually. Davis, lives in Georgia and has been there all summer and will be back here for school beginning of September. We went on one date before he left and have talked everyday since. Then Mark, we met in March and have been talking on and off since. He has been in North Carolina all summer for work. He has about a week left and then is going to Europe for a month and then he will be back and we are excited to see each other again. Finally Migueal. This guy took my V-card. I'm surprisingly happy that it was him who took it too. We met in June when his brother and a friend of mine were dating. He is also the only one that I have had sex with. Me and Mark want to. Like really want to. I'm really excited for him to come back. We have talked about dating and everything so I'm excited for that. Davis is another story though, I have no idea what he wants. I know we are gonna go on a couple of dates when he gets back but thats it. And Migueal is even worse. I am pretty sure that he doesn't want me except for a booty call which I don't want to be. He says that isn't true and that if I just wait a little while for him to be ready he'll ask me out but I don't know if he really will. Honestly right now I think hes the one that I want most so I'm basically screwed. Migueal just got a new job as a truck driver so he is gone a lot. Which will be good for me. It will give me some time to get over him and be able to think about other things in my life. I miss Mark. He is who I want only slightly less than Migueal. But a lot more than Davis. When I met Mark he had a girlfriend and I didn't know it so I flirted, and he flirted back. We had fun talking and even met up once. It was a lot of fun. We were chalking the tunnels under UVU advertising for his DJ event that he had coming up. It was a blast. We didn't kiss or anything. We barely even hugged, but we were flirting all night and when he told that he has a girlfriend I was honestly crushed. I'm scared that will happen with me. I'll be the girlfriend and he will find someone else. That is the only reason that he is second. We stopped talking after that until he broke up and then he messaged me again but at the time I had a boyfriend. It didn't last long and as soon as I broke up with him I messaged Mark and we have been talking ever since, but he's in NC so its been hard. Davis is great and cute and sweet but idk I just feel so drawn to Mark. Maybe its the risk that I crave, I don't know, I just know that I miss Mark and I want him so bad.